Exploring

it really is somewhat, very amusing to learn so many things in an
entirely new level. the feeling is somewhat extraordinary...but yet
again, you just can't help but wonder...

what if there is that one certain thing that would hold you back,
would you want to be dragged down or swim against the tide?


I am pretty much hoping that I wont be faced with that certain dilemma
soon or else my world would come crumble down and break my heart to a
million pieces.

*things that can really ruin your life are the things that you least
expect them to be. such a shame they have to be called humans for
CRYING OUT LOUD! :'(

Exploring

it really is somewhat, very amusing to learn so many things in an
entirely new level. the feeling is somewhat extraordinary...but yet
again, you just can't help but wonder...

what if there is that one certain thing that would hold you back,
would you want to be dragged down or swim against the tide?

I am pretty much hoping that I wont be faced with that certain dilemma
soon or else my world would come crumble down and break my heart to a
million pieces.

*things that can really ruin your life are the things that you least
expect them to be. such a shame they have to be called humans for
CRYING OUT LOUD! :'(

3 More Days

How can I make the last 3 days of my stay here at home worthwhile? 

Would it be nice if I can do something that could somehow make me think about the place where I am going and not the place the I left?

Weew!

I am starting 2011 with one great big foot after another. To be fully honest, I am still in the state of shock right now. I can't believe that the first thing on my list of things to do this year has already been accomplished--and it's only the 5th day of the year. How cool is that?

I landed a job this afternoon and believe me, the hunger that I felt while waiting for my test results and talking it out with the HR people really paid off. My immediate reactions after signing my contracts was to go home and take a good rest--after I read the entire envelope filled with lots of papers that I have signed earlier.

*sigh*

The thought of finally leaving this Island makes me wonder...will I ever make it out there on my own? Will I survive a new urban jungle that has been a part of my history, my blood and my culture? Will I be able to keep up with the fast-paced demands of a new environment? Will I still be ME?

There are a lot of questions boggling my mind as of the moment, as well as thoughts of going out to see the world and meeting new people and exploring new places--and the thought that I would have to leave virtual reality in exchange for something that I have been craving for in the past few years of my life.

The thought of just being out there excites me in every possible way and I can't help but be anxious about it. I know it's going to be tough, but this is what I wanted--and now I got it, might as well take advantage of it. The first bite at the apple is always the sweetest--but as it taste bitter until the end, then the most exciting part comes in and that is throwing what's left of the apple and be happy that you ate the whole thing!

Woohoo! Cebu, here I come. Negros, I am going to miss you. Be back after 6 months for the grand reunion and the big wedding and of course, our birthdays. Could this year get any better or what?! :)

THIS IS NOT A NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION

May I repeat, THIS IS NOT MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION(s). These are just some of the things that I am most probably going to do in the next couple of months. 

1. Land a Job and earn some moolah! It's about time that I go back to work and make myself happy. 

2. Unwind. I would like to travel to the neighboring islands, thanks; and if there would be anyone interested to sponsor me in my endeavor, your help would be willingly accepted. ^_^

3. Learn new things. I have no plans of going back to school nor attend short-courses or crash courses or anything. I just want to see the world from another perspective. Explore and enjoy life. 

4. Finding something better than Candy. I hate to break it to you, but I don't like the thought of sucking up on candies instead of puffing cigarettes. I am diabetic, please; spare me the ant chasing drama.

5. Finding something better than Cigarettes. I have to find something soon or else I am toast! I have to lay-off from the cigs and find something that would divert my attention from its tempting fumes of smoke. Lord, Help me!

6. Get a new phone before my birthday. It's a personal thing; don't get me wrong, OK?

7. Get myself a laptop. It's probably one of the things that would really help me out in one way or another. I can tell that it's more like a need than a want. 

8. Earn my FREEDOM and INDEPENDENCE. This is somewhat complicated but I am pretty sure that I would be able to find something that would help me achieve this. It's worth the try, even though the thought makes me shiver. haha. :P

9. Find a partner. I sound so silly right now, reading this while I type it in; just a couple of hours ago, I told one my closest friends that I don't need a partner to be able to live my life. But somehow, having none is way too boring. I would love to have a partner to spice things up a bit too. I need to play around some time as well, you know. I am human and I cannot deprive myself from these things. I need to live, baby! :P

10. To LOVE even more. I loved so many people back in 2010 and I am going to love even more people this year! yeah! I LOVE YOU! mwah! hahahahahaha.xD

What I Think About NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS

First and foremost, I think it's fake; and this post here is the most childish post that I would ever post on this blog. 

Ok, let me start. 

Ever since I was a kid, I would write down on a piece of paper the things that I would like to change every 1st of the year. One reason that FORCES me to write those things down that they call NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION is that it's the first thing out teachers back then in grade school would ask us the day that we came back from the holidays. 

I don't know why it's very important for them to have resolutions when they know themselves that they won't be able to materialize them in the first place. 

If there is one thing that you would want to change for people to call you a better person, it's not about a long list of stuff that you can possibly do on a piece of paper; it's not about being who they want you to be; it's about you becoming who you are in the most possible way ever. 

Others say that your NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS are somewhat your guide to attaining the best results to the changes that you want to bring forth to your life. But, it has always been our human nature to somehow steer away from the right track and achieve things the hard way rather than achieving them using shortcuts--of which, I think are your NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS. No matter what you do, no matter how hard you try, you always end up crushing down those things in the list one after the other because you just can't do it.

And funny thing is, people take those resolutions seriously that by the end of the day, they'll just forget about it and start out on a new list--and the cycle repeats itself and it's dumb. Correct me if I am wrong, but you yourself know that this happens almost every year every time you try to follow your resolutions, right?

So, a piece of advice from a person like me--a pessimist like me who gets his way around things his way--stop fooling yourself. NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS are just disturbances to your life. We all know that life plays its own game on us by it's own rules and we are just in it for the ride. As much as possible, do the best that you can to RIDE and PLAY life's game your way. It's not about getting there, it's about how you get there. So, if ever there is a possibility that you can stop fooling yourself and act like a kid, then do it now. 

The world isn't going to stop turning just because you did something wrong and you want to go back and correct it; it's going to continuously turn and move on and would bring you something new everyday. Life sometimes is unfair; but we have to try our best to even things up a bit and make something worthy out of it. 

You don't have to pretend and make yourself believe that everyday would be a fine day. Storms are always there to haunt us, to challenge us and to bring out the most in us; starting today, STOP ACTING LIKE A KID and GROW UP. It's your call to make your life colorful and have butterflies fly around it.

It's 2011. Let's make it worthy enough to be a new year. 

2011

Weew! How time flies. One minute, I was blowing the holiday horns and then, its 1/1/11. I can't believe that it's officially 2011. It's a new year and it's a sign for better things to come. Well, actually, I don't know if there are good things to come my way, but I am certain that somehow, I will enjoy this year as much as I enjoyed 2010. 

The Quadrro Uno is somewhat significant for me other than IT being day 1 of 2011. 

First and foremost, there are certain things that I would like to jot down here and I would mark them special in any way possible. Further, I would like to share to everyone that this year is going to be the most special year of my life--ditch the bad (hair) days and the downs, because this year is the year where my life makes a permanent turn.

This year, I am turning 23. As far as I can remember, I have made a couple of promises back then that by the time I reach 23 (or I'd rather call it the "point of maturity"), I would be able to achieve some of the things that I want to do in my life.

One of those "things" that I would like to somehow change is me being a smoker. I don't have any issues with that matter and I am not joining any movement or whatsoever banning smoking and promoting a better atmosphere. I have been a smoker for several years now, and believe me, its hard to quit than it looks like. I have promised to myself (in front of my friends) that I would quit smoking the day that I turn 23. But to tell you honestly, I am having no improvements at all. It seems that I am really attached to smoking and no matter what I do, I just can't seem to let go of it.

I know, I am hooked; addicted to the most popular vice in the world. And I can't help it, I am just human; and it goes perfectly well with a hot cup of coffee--especially when I am really stressed out or when I am nervous or when I am anxious about something big that is coming my way. I know, it's really a bad habit that I have inculcated in my system but since it's a promise, I would have to stand up to it. 

I have 6 months and 22 days to accomplish this "mission" and I am looking forward to a successful accomplishment. I know it's going to be tough, but I have to face it and be done with it; and take note, this is not a NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION. This is something more important than that. This is a personal battle that I would have to put an end soon. Wish me luck everyone. *crossing fingers*

PS.

On the day that I'll turn 23, I would give you an update to this post.