Another Update

Just for update's sake. I am currently in a place where I spent sleepless nights tapping the keyboard keys, trying to come up with something that is really good; well, of course, good if we're talking about personal preferences here, but anyways, I am proud to say that I am home. Not for the benefit of being able to spend my days off wisely but just to unwind and think things over. 


Nope, I am not quitting my job; I am starting to like it--though at times it really stresses me out--but nevertheless, I am not bailing out on it just yet. I still have a lot of things to try out, so many things to explore in this industry and I am just starting out.

Anyways, why am I here? What am I supposed to talk about? Simple: NON-SENSE.As they say it, its BUSINESS AS USUAL. I am here to type down anything that would ever cross my mind. Currently, I am trying to figure out how this piece of gadget that they call the blackberry to actually work for me--and I am having a hard time doing it. Unfortunately, when I am supposed to tag along with me the CD that it came with as well as the software churva, I left it in Cebu somehow. Now, I am trying to download things off from the company's website an actually trying to make good use of the free stuff that you can knick off from there. 


While I am making this post, it makes me wonder; how can you actually fun that at the end of the day, you dont even seem to bother and do anything at all? You try to motivate yourself but you still end up with nothing...and why is that? Some people really do have the talent to enjoy themselves even if they are finding it hard to keep up? I dont have the slightest ideas about how their brain works but somehow, it amazes me to the point that I somewhat envy them for that particular reason. 


Back when I was jobless (LOLS), I used to think that material things would somehow make me happy for the fact that they are somewhat one of my biggest cravings in life; but then again, look at me now? Yes, I was finally able to buy the things that my father failed to give me; but still, what makes me happy is making other people happy. And now, I am wondering--is there someone out there who was born to do the same thing to me? *here we go again...*


(let's skip that part, it wasn't meant to be included in this post in the first place, sheesh!)


Anyways, I am trying--desperately, for all I care--trying to find out the true meaning of my existence here. Someone told me, for you to be able to find true happiness, you must seek for the Lord; He is the only one who knows what you are and what you are capable to do. Yes, I know that fact by heart--its just that I am not really the type of person who engages in conversations that are so holy I might just end up breaking a glass or two; but still, I end with nothing--nothing at all. My search doesn't even progress at all, not a single bit. 


So, if ever someone out there gets to read this post, please do give me some advices as to how to get started with this thing--Aian Gargantiel, I know you would be the first to comment on this post so please make your comment the best comment that you have ever thought of. :P


I really think that I should start another post...this one is getting way too senseless that even I no longer understand what is being said here. Sorry! :P

Just a Post to Update

I am not really sure as to what I would really write down on this blank page that I am staring at; its been quite a while that I haven't posted in this blog of mine--that when I come to a point and think about why I even put this one up in the first place, makes me forget of the past that I had way back when I was at home. 

Currently, I have been busy about a lot of stuff. As always, I keep thinking of the things that are far and beyond the world that I am currently in right now--a world filled with stress and everything else in between that brings it to life. But honestly, I am really not that busy, I just want it to make it sound so complicated that in reality, its not. Haha. I don't really know what to think of. I am technically out of bounds--I am clearly not myself anymore. I no longer have that sense of humor that I usually have, I am no longer the outgoing person, I am no longer that person who stays up late at night until the morning comes in front of the computer, thought I still face the computer until the morning but this time, trying to analyze how my customers mess their accounts up and how they spent their money bluntly that they come to a point that they mess everything up literally and they scream at us over the phone for the things that they themselves are the only person to blame. Isn't that stupid? But as my coach said, if not for their stupidity, then we wouldn't have this job that we all have right now. So, instead of sulking all day, cursing the heavens why callers are so stupid, I thank them instead because if not for their stupidity then I wouldn't be earning so much every 15 days. Haha. 

Damn! What else can I stay? For crying out loud, I technically miss the life I had back home--I miss everything back home. The people, the place, the food, the environment, everything. What makes it funny this time is that by Friday, I will be going back to the place that I deem where I truly belong--what makes it funny? Its not that I am going home, but its the fact that payday would come first before that day would come but I am more excited about going home and not about the money that I would be getting that I would eventually use to go back home and be with the people that are important to me. 

Ungh! I am going nowhere again in a post and I hate it. But somehow, I am relieved though that I was, again, able to share a little bit of the life that I am living right now and that is what's important. Nevertheless, I never don't really care about anything else--love, sex, money--they are not that important to me right now; What is important is for me now is to enjoy life that way I wanted it to be after getting what I wanted and that is the freedom that I wanted way back when my life was a mess. 

--> Until the next post...

Oh boy!

Its been a month since I havent posted and Oh, boy--I missed it a lot. Dang! Is it going to be this way the whole year round? I dont really think its going to be necessary. Just wait, I will soon make a comeback and this time, I am going to make sure that I would be able to share to the world the simplest thoughts that I have in my simply addicted brain. :P

I miss everyone... :'(