Everybody Knows

'coz everybody knows nobody really knows on how to make it work or how to ease the hurt...

Hmpf...

I am not really in the mood to blog as there is nothing to blog about. 


For the past few days, I have been...


1. Hating the Electric Company for cutting off electricity for almost the entire day. 


2. Loving my phones even more. 


3. Hating BOYS even more!!


4. Sleeping a lot.


5. Spending quality time--with myself.


6. Screaming, Running around and Sleeping naked at night. 


7. Hates people who are selfish and are down-right A**es. 


8. Had fun making my nose bleed. :P


9. Reminiscing...


10. Dreading mom's arrival. haha. Welcome back, ... Cruela! :p

Him

He makes my heart tick...

He brings out the fighter in me; he is quite a handful yet he doesn't seem to be a heavy load at all...

He is sweet but a rebel in his own way; Naive, young, reckless--yet mature enough to know what he is and what he wants in the world...

I know, he looks silly with his tongue out; but he is really sweet--candy-sweet! :P

...He is all I want for Christmas. Nyahahahahahahahahaha. :P

Elections

I am just going to share a photo that I quickly took when I first went to my precinct. When I saw the sea of voters clogging the doorway, I can't help myself but go home and come back an hour later--where everything was clear. haha. :P 

Dili ba lain? haha. :P

Me.

 I never think when I talk and I never talk when I think. :)

Bayot (Gay, Homosexual, etc...)

HOST: And the black water award goes to...
GAY1: Unsa daw bayot?
GAY2: (in a loud voice) Ice water...
GAY1: Huh?
GAY2: (shouting) Ice water award!

Gay people always have the guts to make fun out of simple things that makes life even lovelier than ever. :P


** This was during the coronation night of Mr. and Ms. Buglasan 2010; Dora overheard these gay people talking (rather, screaming at each other) at the back stage. Funny. Thanks do for sharing. :) 

Nuffin'

I don't really feel like blogging today but somehow, every time I go online, my instincts would tell me to open a tab and hit blogger.com and check if there is anything new. Well, I am here now so might as well grab the opportunity to blab about a couple of things that happened in the past 2 days that I have been "away from the keyboard".

As I have mentioned over and over again, one of the main reasons that I was on AFK is because of the frequent power surges/outages. For the past few days, power would go out as early as 8am PHT (Philippine Time) and would come back on around 4 or 5pm PHT; and again, for some unknown reasons, power would go back out at 7pm PHT and would come back on around 10pm PHT--by then, its either I am having fun engaging myself into conversations with my sister or with a couple of good old friends, or I am asleep because of the deafening boredom that engulfs me that I would sacrifice going to bed, being bitten by killer mosquitoes, with the scorching temperature of my room that is caused more further with the unavailability of my trusty electric fan.

Aside from that, if I really get bored, I wouldn't even tempt myself and come near the PC and just sulk away at one corner and pop my favorite tunes on with my celly. So, there. Those are the reasons why I kept myself on AFK. haha.

RECENT ACTIVITIES: (Online)

1. Facebook-ing. The most effective way to bring a smile after a long and boring day or a tireless day at work; Facebook does relieve me from stress given that I am updated of what my friends are up to and that would somehow make me feel like they are nearby (not that we are really separated by distance that much or something...) and with that, it makes me realize that life really brings a lot of surprises in every turn. (While on Facebook) I play games and view other applications such as horoscopes and advices and stuff. Is there possibly anything new that you can do while on Facebook these days? I guess, NO. :P

2. I am a certified newbie on oDesk. I am not yet back at work; my leave ends on the 1st of November so I still roughly have a couple more days to go rather, a week, to enjoy my freedom. But nevertheless, I am not expecting anything more than that because I will be leaving my current company soon. Everything just got way out of hand and I don't know if things will be back to normal soon or not; all I know is, its about time that I venture off to new things. Explore the possibilities and look for that "greener pasture" that the world has to offer me. 

I know it would come off really difficult for me to leave the things that I am accustomed to and that it would mean that I would have to brace myself for a new change and I am ready for that. In order to be able to reach your goals, sacrifices must be made; and therefore, I am ready to make those sacrifices in one way or another and that I am more than willing to embrace that change even if it takes me to cross seas or travel far. Its now or never--and venturing into oDesk is one of those changes that I am looking forward to in the next couple of months or so. :)

3. Ditched my other service provider and switched to a new one. I got really fed up with my other service provider because messages get delayed for unknown reasons and that calls are unavailable for me to enjoy. Aside from that, the people I know who are under the same provider are somehow dead--figuratively. Yeah, they send me in messages and quotes and other stuffs but when I attempt to engage on a conversation (thru SMS), they suddenly disappear.

Its quite disappointing really so, I decided to switch to a network where only a few select friends (real ones) are around and that I would never have to be depressed when no one sends me a reply because I know, with my current service provider, replies would come in really fast and that calls can be made until your mouth runs dry from talking. 

4. (related to number 1) With my new service provider, I would never have to miss out on what's new with my friends because the network offers FREE AND UNLIMITED access on Facebook. Flaws: its a FREE text-version of Facebook so all I can access are comments, status updates and technically almost anything--except for photos and external links as it would mean that I would have to waste Php10 every 30 minutes just to view them (and buffering would take a minute or two) and enjoy them as I would on my PC. But, nevertheless, its a life-saver from boredom so I am happy that I made the switch. The H**L with my other provider; it can rot in the dumpster for all I care. haha. :P

5. Been watching videos on Youtube. I definitely have no choice so might as well enjoy the freedom of being able to listen to my favorite tunes in the background and do something else while I am at it. I don't really hop from one website to another so, I am contented with the pages that I open every time I go online. 

And now, I think its time for me to hit the sack because my brain is drained and my eyelids are starting to droop.

PS.

I am in love with the 'right' person right now but at the 'wrong' time. Ungh! why does this always happen to me? I am not liking it. I feel like giving up right this instant. :'(

Realizations of the Day--Wednesday

And it seems endless the longer I stay here on blogger, does it? haha. :P

1. I still have a lot to learn when it comes to getting myself around the online world. Just a couple of minutes ago, I did several things that somehow opened my eyes to reality. I also took several test/examinations on oDesk and realized that I really have to learn a little bit more when it comes to the English language and beyond.

2. I came up with a decision that I am laying off my Globe sim card for a while. For a change, I would like to disconnect to the world of SMS and calls to stupid people who don't even seem to care. Thus, I will reciprocate the deed.

3. I realized that I am missing a portion of my life for not going to the Sidlakang Negros and contribute my share to the Buglasan Festival celebration. The festival is going to end soon and I barely attended an event that makes the Festival what it is. Thus, I am going to go and watch an event when the Festival closes come Sunday--and no one is going to stop me. 

I know its not a big deal to most of the people I know but it is to me. I barely get the chance to see the world from my perspective and I think its time that I do. 

4. Today, I realized that I hate my boss so much despite the fact that she is my aunt and that I pay respect to all the elders in my family whether I know them by heart or not. 

Why can't she realize that she is not the only person in the world that has needs? I know, by the time my cousin gets to read this blog post, he would be furious. I mean, my boss is HIS MOTHER; we all have that some sort of animal-ish instinct within us to protect our folks and that doesn't exempt him. 

On the latter, I am not posting this one just because I want to hit on them; No, I am a far better person than that. This is my personal blog anyway and it somehow reflects the inner me that I am not able to show the world so, there is nothing negative about this post in one way or another. I am just utterly expressing my feelings by the end of the day which has become a habit of mine. 

So, to Richard, my dearest cousin, don't get me wrong. I don't mean any harm. I am just expressing my inner thoughts in the way that I do best and that is blogging. I have no intention of publicizing any issue or whatsoever. I am just clearly being myself. I don't want to hate you or your family or the other way around because you know I am not that kind of person. I just hope that you understand me, in behalf of the employees of the company because honestly, I am not alone with my sentiments and you should know that amongst all people. 

5. Today, I realized that my sister is not so bad at all. You just have to be patient enough when it comes to her choice of words when it comes to casual conversations and stuff because she is not the type who settles a conversation without cussing a word or two.

6. Today is another day wasted. I better bust a move or else I will be left behind with nothing. *sigh*

Promises

For the record, I have several promises that I have been holding on for the past few months. What are they?


1. (most recently) I promised to post a love story/letter here. Yes, I will. But I always get tired of continuing the story that it comes out blunt. Thus, I am reserving it for future use.


2. I promised to go to a card reader--of which I failed to do time and time again. Franco, when are you taking me to Carmela's? The year is almost over... :'(


3. I promised to look for a new job--not that my previous job sucks, but the management does.


4. I promised to visit a couple of friends in Bacolod, Davao, and Cebu.


5. I promised I would still be working in my previous company until December--which is not likely to happen anymore, I guess. 


PS.
Don't worry. I'll make them come true soon.

The best and worst

Yesterday, I was excited about going out with a couple of friends and filing my bad a** tummy with lots of alcohol--and I did. It was funny because it was the first time I got really drunk and the first time I puked in public. Nasty. haha. Nevertheless, it was fun and I enjoyed every bit of it and am looking forward for next time. :P


I was supposed to write down a love letter that my mind came across when listening to a couple of love tunes on my phone when all of a sudden, when I logged in to my Facebook page, I was bombarded with chats from Tanjayanons of which I didn't likely expect. So, I got stuck on Facebook and totally forgot about the love letter that I was supposed to write down. 


There is still tomorrow and hopefully I can come up with the loveliest most and the sincerest love letter ever that everyone would have to jerk a tear or two after reading it. I am looking forward to that letter of which I will write down from the bottom of my nicotine-filled heat. 


Good night folks. I am officially calling it a day. :) Oh, Good morning too. :P


PS.
Gabe Bondoc's songs are so--I don't really now how to describe but somehow, when I listen to them, I feel so...Light. :) I love you Gabe, Forever! (from Marga. :P)

Excited

As of today, I am excited about several things... :P

1. I am going out. Its not everyday that I go out with a couple of friends and its not everyday that I take in serious amount of alcohol in my body, so there...I am totally excited about it.

2. I am excited to go to sleep tonight. Not that its Monday tomorrow, its just that I am excited to sleep in a cold weather like this--not to mention a super typhoon is nearby. :P

3. I am in love. :P

Early Morning Post

I haven't actually done this before and I am absolutely having fun with it. 

What I did for the past hour:

1. Logged in to my Facebook account and was greeted with only 8 new activities that involved me (photo tags, wall post/comments, friend greetings--same old, same old).

2. Opened a new tab and searched for Wayne Wonder's Hold me Now song, a soundtrack from the hit movie "50 first dates". I don't know what came into me but when I woke up this morning, the tune was playing in my head so when I went online and I quickly searched for the song and been playing it since then. :) 

3. Saw Aian Gargantiel posting her "princess" pics and I had fun watching them. I was laughing my guts out as it was my first time to see Aian wear a dress and pretty much, she looked good in a dress. My only comment was: If only she had the body, she would have looked really hot (with a pretty face, honestly--no kidding, and that afro-like hair that could have been made to stay in one place in one way or another, she would definitely looked like a princess--an African princess, that is. haha. :P) and here is a photo of her in one of those dresses that she ought to choose before 10/16. 

Cute isn't she? Though seriously, she is biting her lips. Which means one thing: She's trying to be seductive. haha. :P

4. A friend of mine gave me a fun idea to do on Facebook and that is to search/view profiles of people that have the same surname with mine. She said that most of the people she found were mostly of foreign nationalities so she concluded that she has a foreign blood running through her veins. So, I did the same thing. :P

Funny thing was, most of the people I found were local entities, people that have the same surname as I was living all over the country, from Manila, to Cebu to Davao--and a couple of Spanish people too. haha. Weird because most of them looked pretty/handsome and--I don't know them at all. haha. I know, silly me. :P But it was fun, you should try it too. :P

5. Decided to make this post because it was my first time to be facing the computer early in the morning and found out that its pretty much better compared to blogging at night because your system is refreshed and its a brand new start. :) my brains are working perfectly normal and I find it intriguing, so to speak. :P

6. My coffee is done--and so are my cigarettes; now I am wondering if I should go get another cup or not...or maybe go to the store right across the street and buy more cigarettes? haha. 

Now...

7. Everyone else is waking up. So I guess the sun is already high out. :)

8. Breakfast will soon be served; though I am not in the mood to eat. Coffee makes me full and I don't have to argue about that. So, I am making a decision to ditch breakfast and just enjoy the first few hours of this fine Saturday morning online--that is if there will be no power outages and all that. :P

9. I was thinking of converting my regular load to my service provider's unlimited service though in the back of my mind, something tells me not to because people won't bother sending me a message or two anyway and it means one thing--I will be wasting my precious airtime balance for nothing. So...I am still in a dilemma. 

10. And then I just thought of my friends and that made me realize one thing: I hate them sometimes for brewing up my conscience, telling me certain stuff about what I should do at this point of my life and what decisions I should make to get the most out of it. I already have a lot of things to worry about in my life and here they come adding up a little bit more.

But nevertheless, its what I like about them too. They inspire me to become a better person each day and I thank them all from the bottom of my heart. Its not something that I do on a daily basis but somehow, it makes me feel all fuzzy and warm inside and I like it. :)

PS.

Good Morning everyone. :)

I wish I had a Dragon for a Pet

Yep, you heard me right. Haha. I know its a bit lame because I just saw "how to tame a dragon" and really, I was blown away--not by the graphics or anything but to the story that somehow made me realize two things.

1. Being a coward doesn't always mean that a person is useless. Sometimes, the most coward person in the world could bring forth the oddest idea of change that everyone can benefit from and;

2. Never be too judgmental towards a person or a thing. One look is never enough to define who or what they are. Sometimes, we have to go deeper into the natural perspective of things and read between the fine lines that separates the truth from the lies. 

I guess, all we need is a little push, don't you think? I mean, we don't need a dragon to do those things, right? All we need is a little faith and trust in our instincts and sooner than we know it, we are surrounded with the good vibes and just be cool with it. :)

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The result of Boredom...Can't Help it!

Your Name/Petname?
** David/Jhules (actually, JHULES is my 2nd name but some prefer to call me by that name)


Are u working or Studying or other?
** working...


Discribe yourself in 3 sentences?
** I am cute. I am fluffy. I am gay. :)


Dream Boy/Girl?
** (This is hard, you know) Anthony Solitana :P


Describe ur Daily routine?
** Random; that's all I can say.


What are some words or phrases you use most? 
** "waqy L!"


What are your hobbies? 
** watching TV, Facebook-ing, Walking, Listening to music...eating! 


What's the best advice you've given or been given? 
** be myself.


If you could live anywhere, where would it be? 
** Greece would be awesome. Though Brazil or Jamaica would be perfect. :)


What would be the one thing you'd change about yourself? 
** Nothing. I used to hate myself but now, I am totally fine with it.


What is your deepest fear? 
** To be caught having sex with my bestfriend who happens to be our neighbor. :P


If you could meet one person, dead or alive, who would it be? 
** Michael Jackson. I would like to ask if he truly is Gay and what made him become one. 


What is your favorite thing to wear? 
** Boxer Shorts--Breezy! :P


What's your favorite food? 
** Pasta, My Sister's Cooking. :)


Who is your secret crush?
** Its "secret" right? So, Why should I tell? :P


Best dressed?
** Iya Villania. 


Best couple?
** Aga Muhlach, Charlene Gonzales-Muhlach


Favorite friend?
** I don't pick favorites; as long as they stay true to themselves (and to me) and make me laugh, your IN. :)


Favorite Actor n actress(post one only)?
** Gerard Butler/ Jennifer Aniston


Favorite 2 Songs two lines?
** Weak by JoJo 
"I get so weak in the knees, I can hardly speak, I lose all control and then something takes over me..."


** Emotions by Destiny's Child 
"It's over and done but the heartache lives on inside..."


Hottest guy?
** Anthony Solitana. :P


Most likely to be arrested?
** Me? Hell no. 


Who looks like a used car saleman?
** This one is cool, Jejireh Tabotabo. bwahahahhahaha. xD


If you are given another chance to live ur life..what will you do?
** Id rather be a full-fledged Princess. Sorry Margz, Gotta Steal your dream away from you. :P


If you are alone in Island and you have only one partner to choose..to whom you choose ,why?
** Allen lloyd Tabio. I would like to know him better than I knew him way back in sophomore year. If there were more reasons why I choose him, I would like to keep them to myself, thanks. :P


Hottest person in Dumzville?
** I don't really know. How I wish I knew HIM. haha.


If you can be invisible, what is the first naughty thing that you would do?
** haha. This is fun. Kiss my "secret crush" of course--I will let your imagination run wild and guess where I would kiss him. :P


Your Romatic ideas/expectation about Love!
** It brings Islands closer together. :P (lols. Far-out much)

Boredom

It really sucks to just sit in front of the computer and just stare at it for no good reason at all. As of today, Facebook is not helping at all; it used to make me preoccupied with the so many activities that I can do in the said social networking site but tonight, they are just not helping me at all. 

I can't help but go blank at times, even when my favorite tunes are buzzing on my headphones, still, I just find the urge to go blank and just stare at nothing like a dead man sitting by the front porch. 

To be fully honest, physically I am blank but my head isn't. There are so many things to think about and yet I don't have the guts to just try and do something to be able to change things and materialize my thoughts in the most possible way. 

As I go to bed, my dreams are somehow a bit nauseating too. Every night, the same dream--over and over again, time after time. It just won't let me go. So, is there any possibility that I would be able to put an end to this boredom? I hope I can find a solution very soon or else...I think I am going to be crazy.

Emotions

I just can't help but be emotionally down right now. I thought FAMILIES are supposed to help each other out and be true to themselves in any given situation. But I guess it doesn't matter to some whom I called family for the past 7 months because clearly, they don't even have the slightest idea of consideration and utmost respect to an individual who look forward to nothing but their hard-earned money that they have put much effort into. 

It didn't only happen to me. It happened to several others more; and what did they do? Instead of being considerate and all that, they tore them apart, ruined their names, threatened them--AND never even bothered to attend to their needs ever again because they are no longer within reach--or so they think. 

What I really hate the most are people who are EVIL beyond all means. Too bad, these EVIL people are my family...but don't get me wrong, I am not one of them. 

Realizations of the Day

Oct. 12, 2010 Edition of Realizations that won't seem to end (according to my watch)


1. People are really sensitive; and we should pay attention to that.


2. Humans are really hot blooded, making me wish I was a vampire. If I can't escape the fact that I am a hot-blooded human, might as well become a werewolf. :P


3. IF you really don't want to mess around with people (or the other way around), go to sleep then.


4. Ang intriga, nakakasuka, pwes...sumuka ka ng sumuka hangga't kaya mo pa. 


5. Family are family. But if they go overboard, kick their asses. That's what I am going to do very soon. 


6. IF YOU ARE GAY, THEN SHOW IT. Puta'ng ina'ng mo'ng nagtatago ba sa kwarto mo'ng bulok. Lumabas ka at ipakita mo sa mundo kung ano ka at ano'ng kaya mo'ng gawin at wag ka'ng magpakasweet sa boyfriend mo'ng ulol na ang habol sa'yo ay pera lang. Pumili ka ng tama at magmahal ka ng tama. Wag pa dalos-dalos, mahirap magksakit ngayong tag-ulan.


7. Friends are really for keeps--on certain occasions AND to a select few. 


8. IF you LOVE someone, give them your all--except your money. :P


9. I just realized, I want a laptop so much. :)


10. The end. 

Another excerpt

By: Aian Ross
Daily thoughts- Tuesday ( Oct. 12, 2010 )

If somebody messes up with you, don't cry.

Stand up. Punch them in the face. Get even.

Then move on.

(one important lesson you'll learn if you grew up the youngest in the family)

A short story...

A GLASS OF MILK

(Please take time to read)

One day, a poor boy who was selling goods from door to door to pay his way through school, found he had only one thin dime left, and he was hungry. He decided he would ask for a meal at the next house.

However, he lost his nerve when a lovely young woman opened the door. Instead of a meal he asked for a drink of water. She thought he looked hungry so brought him a large glass of milk.

He drank it slowly, and then asked, "How much do I owe you?" "You don't owe me anything," she replied. "Mother has taught us never to accept pay for a kindness." He said... "Then I thank you from my heart."

As Howard Kelly left that house, he not only felt stronger physically, but his faith in God and man was strong also. He had been ready to give up and quit.

Year's later that young woman became critically ill. The local doctors were baffled. They finally sent her to the big city, where they called in specialists to study her rare disease. Dr. Howard Kelly was called in for the consultation.

When he heard the name of the town she came from, a strange light filled his eyes. Immediately he rose and went down the hall of the hospital to her room. Dressed in his doctor's gown he went in to see her. He recognized her at once. He went back to the consultation room determined to do his best to save her life. From that day he gave special attention to the case.

After a long struggle, the battle was won. Dr. Kelly requested the business office to pass the final bill to him for approval. He looked at it, and then wrote something on the edge and the bill was sent to her room. She feared to open it, for she was sure it would take the rest of her life to pay for it all.

Finally she looked, and something caught her attention on the side of the bill. She read these words... "Paid in full with one glass of milk" Signed: Dr. Howard Kelly.

Tears of joy flooded her eyes as her happy heart prayed: "Thank You, God, that Your love has spread abroad through human hearts and hands.”

“Now you have two choices. You can send this page on and spread a positive message, or ignore it and pretend it never touched your heart.

** A story that was passed on to me through Facebook. Now, its your time to do your share. Be moved.

Excerpt

By: Aian Ross
Daily Thoughts, Sunday Edition ( 10-10-10 )


Dreams are useless if you are not doing anything to make it real.


** Love this. :)

Mondays...

** Are really a drag.


** Are the first days of the week. (duh)


** Feel like forever.


** Makes you think of FRIDAY. :)


** Are formal days.


** Aside the negative aspects of it, are a fresh start. 


** Make me think of Alarm clocks, eggs and sausages for breakfast and zombie-like people who go to work.


** Are STUPID. :p

Last but not the Least...

Before anything else, Happy birthday to my 4th eldest brother. Hooray! :)


Another batch of realizations for today. :)


1. It's fun to be with people who are older than you yet act like you are on the same age bracket.


2. Robinson's is the place to be in a small but slowly progressing city like Dumaguete.


3. My phone is really my lifeline. I don't know what to expect if I ever lost one of my precious. :)


4. Bacolod is so near, yet so far--so is Cebu. *sighs*


5. I am utterly sleepy and tired--but I am somehow amazed by my fighting spirit to stay awake.


6. There are some people who doesn't seem to respect the dead people.


7. Birthdays, Birthdays and More Birthdays--Spongebob's Birthday Bop. :P


8. I don't really know what LOVE is, can someone teach me? :)


9. #7 and #8 are the weirdest thoughts that I ever posted. Totally.


10. I didn't realize how badly I want to go and see a flick until I saw the schedule of the on-showing movies in Robinson's. Sheesh.


11. Happiness really is a choice, I repeat.


12. The end. :)

Spinning...

Spinning Away by Sugar Ray

Up on a hill, as the day dissolves
With my pencil turning moments into line
High above in the violet sky
A silent silver plane - it draws a golden chain

One by one, all the stars appear
As the great winds of the planet spiral in
Spinning away, like the night sky at Arles
In the million insect storm, the constellations form

On a hill, under a raven sky
I have no idea exactly what I've drawn
Some kind of change, some kind of spinning away
With every single line moving further out in time

And now as the pale moon rides (in the stars)
Her form in my pale blue lines (in the stars)
And there, as the world rolls round (in the stars)
I draw, but the lines move round (in the stars)
There, as the great wheels blaze (in the stars)
I draw, but my drawing fades (in the stars)
And now, as the old sun dies (in the stars)
I draw, and the four winds sigh (in the stars)

PS. 

Thanks Tashy-Washy for the introduction. I love the song. Now I am hooked to it. LSS! :P 

** Click on the Title of the song on the post body and you will be redirected to the DL link of the song. :) Enjoy. <3

haha. :P

Enough of the routine already. Go on, have an adventure, - do what you always wanted deep within your heart. Do what brings you alive, and the universe will open doors where there were only walls.


This is, by far, the oddest advice the I ever got from an automated Facebook application and guess what? I like it. :)


I don't know why I am here blogging about this because technically, these things don't even matter to me. I mean, in a way, they somehow don't have an effective-ish thing on me. But nevertheless, the advices that I get from this Facebook application intrigues me in some way that I never would have expected. 


Maybe God wants me to do something of which I hesitate to do. But don't you worry God, everything will soon come to reality; and I am intending to make them all happen one by one, if that's what you really want.  

10-10-10

What I did today:


1. Went to Dumaguete...just for fun. Got to watch some kids fight their guts off in an "arnis" inspired martial arts thing-ish at Robinson's place the whole afternoon. 


2. Spent the late afternoon with my sister and her BFF, my brother and his future wife, and my ever so unpredictable cousin.


3. Had dinner at "Atong Kamalig" and it was cool. Though the service was quite disappointing,  but the place is good.


4. Got time to enjoy life the shortest way possible.


5. I was me. :)

Hate

Why is the world filled with so many things to hate?! Or is it just me being hot-tempered and all? Ungh! I hate it when I think too much--its makes me lose it. Help!

My Lovely Cry Baby by S.G. Wannabe

Reasons Why I love this Video:


1. Its like a mini-movie. Be ready to be moved and touched.
2. Though I can't understand a single thing the actors/actress in the video is saying, but I do feel them through their actions and the way they acted in it. 
3. Its uttered in Korean. Its so lovely. :P
4. The song is lovely too. 
5. I just love it. :P

IF

** IF only I was strong enough to stand up on my own, then it wouldn't be so much of a drag as to be the only person in the world that never wants to let go of his family despite all the odds that is being laid down in front of him. 

** IF only my brothers are not that intelligent enough or not being such a braggart when it comes to their achievements, I would like to stay just the way I am and never be compared to them in one way or another. 

** IF only I was permitted to talk back to them, just to reason out and point points, then they would know how I feel towards them.

** IF only FREEDOM wasn't a choice, then I would be having a great time chatting with people whom I know would understand me for better or for worst. 

** IF only I wasn't stuck in this cage for a house, then I would freely come out in the open as if its the only thing that I cared about. 

** IF only, I was me. Then things wouldn't be so hard after all. 

Online, I miss you.

The reason why I wasn't able to go online for a couple of days is because of the following:


1. POWER SURGES (LOAD SHARING). For the next 8 months, it's going to be like this. Power goes out for 8 hours and stays on for 2 hours and then goes back off for the next 8 hours. Sick, right?


2. I GOT LAZY. Yeah, everyone else gets lazy and all--and I happen to be attacked by laziness recently so, there. :P


3. I READ ECLIPSE. And I was happy I made it through reading the book halfway at one go. haha. What an achievement. :P


4. I WAS THINKING THINGS OVER. Laying off from the computer and be stuck with my online life made me think things over and over and over again; and somehow, I was able to come up with certain decisions that would steer my life to the right side of the road.


5. I CAME UP WITH DECISIONS. In connection to number 4. :P

Thank you

Isn't it awkward when someone like me who strives and lives everyday of my life cursing and screaming "F*** the World!" or "Screw you, B**ches!" say the words "Thank you" every once in a while? Well, I suddenly experienced that feeling right now--right this very instant--and it seemed like I feel butterflies in my stomach. 

No, I am not IN LOVE. But I am trying to be.

Either way, I would still like to thank all those who helped me become who I am. Who are they? My friends. I know, I can hear your screams out there saying I should thank God and my family for bringing me onto this world and giving me life that I, personally, dislike by all possible means. You know what, I am thankful to God and my family too. But just so you know, sometimes, I don't feel like thanking them in one way or another; and I never wanted to talk about family nor talk about God on a daily basis because that would be a sin, right?

Anyways, I would like to thank my friends for making me who I am. They may never be always there to help me out when I am in deep S**t but nevertheless, they somehow helped me push myself further and become who I am now. 

They say friends are for keeps; yes, I would have to agree on that in certain circumstances but not all the time. Some of my friends have become so mature that their way of thinking, somehow gets in the way of our friendship nowadays. They are being blinded by poverty, the need to need, the pleasure of sex, the happiness in material things and somehow forgot the old days where we used to sit by the park and just waste several hours a day to laugh and to be just who we really are.

I don't have to mention names as they have the most common names ever. Well, I would mention them anyway for you to have an idea as to how common there names are. 

1. Cathy. In my opinion, this name is, I think, one of the most popular names in the entire universe. I know several--and I mean it--people who goes by the name (or pseudonym) Cat, Cathy, and Catherine and Honestly, they make me dizzy. 

2. Carla. Another name that is so common, gays even take it as their own when comes the night that they would just party their assess away for all its worth--2 grands perhaps? or even more.

3. Hannah. Montana; just kidding. See how her name is so common that even the most popular teen star shares it with her. 

4. Marie Dawn. Both names makes me sick. Its not that I despise her existence or something, but hello? ungh. Never mind. 

5. Ruthergen. I know you are thinking, how can this name be common? Let's face it, when we meet someone who bares a name that you can barely utter or even remember, or find hard to holla at when you see him/her on the streets, we tend to use suffixes of their names and that's what makes them common. Gen, Jenny, Gen2? Get out. 

6. Arianne. hello? It's way too girly. haha. I don't have a grudge on you yanz but I can't help but include your name. I know, by the time you get to read this, you would agree to my opinion that you don't deserve this name. :P

Anyways, these are the people that made me who I am and I am thankful to them--OK, tagaan ug chance--and to God as well for giving me them instead of those bubble-headed freaks around school. 

To these people right here, thank you. Because of what you did, I am inspired and motivated to somehow struggle in this thing that they call LIFE. You may never always be there for me, but my thoughts of you all keep telling me that someday, that skyscraper will be mine. I love you all. Wish you are all here so that we can cuddle up and all. I MISS ALL OF YOU SO MUCH--the old you. 

Revelations...to aian

This post is dedicated to Aian Ross Gargantiel.

I didn't make even the slightest effort to go the job fair. Why? Because I am intimidated; intimidated of the people whom I know who are pretty much better than I am. There are several things as well behind the intimidation. 


One of which is that I lack confidence in myself. Confidence in a way that I feel that I am pretty much an inferior to everyone in the world. Maybe, I was meant to have a life living in the slums and never get to see and feel how the spot light turns everyone into bubble-heads. 

Another is Intimidation or me being intimidated itself. I don't know. Maybe, I just think too negatively and that I feel that the world doesn't even want me around in the first place. I mean, I know I am not the only in the world who feels the same and I know I am even blessed to have the life that I have now. But, there are certain things that you just can't explain and that no matter what you do, nothing would happen anyway--in one way or another. 

Seriously, I don't even know where I am going to end up in this world nor when will my life reach the "dead end". To be fully honest, I am both HAPPY and UNHAPPY with my life as of the moment; Do you know why yanz? Ok, let me break it down to you. (murag negra! :P)

** HAPPY because, in one way or another, I was able to know what it feels like to be working and having a job and earning money on my own.
** HAPPY because I was able to be myself "partially" while I am at work and that I enjoyed every bit of it.
** HAPPY because at some point, I was able to tell the difference between shit and crap--though they may sound alike, they still differ.

** UNHAPPY because everytime I finally make a decision, I somehow end up doing things the other way around and sometimes, it makes me feel suck-y about it. 
** UNHAPPY because everytime I promise someone something, I end up breaking that promise and it's really not healthy for me--and for the party involved.
** UNHAPPY because I am still stuck with my family, no matter what I try to do to be away from them. Other than that, they somehow still have control over me and I don't like it one single bit.


To be fully honest, I am envious of you and all the other people I know who get's the things that they want. I mean, things that they have somehow longed for doing and that they are able to get THEIR WAY. Do you get what I am saying? 


INTELLIGENCE, CONFIDENCE, GUTS... I don't think I have these; and I am so hating it. Gawd, how I wish there was one way that I can just muster all my guts and brag about the level of intelligence that I have and be confident wherever I go. 


I guess everything is only a matter of positivity and perseverance. Not to mention patience and everything else in between. *sigh* How I wish everything turns out my way or else I will have to hit the high way. 


PS.
Sorry I posted a letter to you here on my blog. So far, Its the only way decent that I can think of that we both can communicate and understand each other very well. It would be pretty much awkward posting this one on Facebook--too lengthy. Oh, I also thought of sending this one to your mail--which you don't normally check and only contains notifications from Facebook which you hate a lot; and I can't translate this to a simple 15 paged text message. *sigh*