When I think...

** I always get to think of stupid stuff.


** I think about food. :P


** I am always in a mess. 


** I do get to think... :)


** This is what happens: Blogging my thought away. 


Therefore, I conclude, When I blog, Its non-sense. :)

According to God...

I don't have to be serious to be spiritual. Laughter is good! Levity is good! If I allow myself to be joyful, that joy radiates to all those around me. God honors me and my laughter...

Realizations of the Day Part 2

As I sit alone during break again, after several months, I realized several things. I realized how badly I miss my friends and the whole aspect of it. I miss going to school, I miss sitting on the grass by the park, I miss chit-chatting and sharing secrets with the people whom I know understands me in my complete package...I miss my old life and the people in it. 

Other than that, I miss several people too...

1. I miss JB. Yeah, I know he is a dumb-ass and I hated his attitude but somehow, I miss his presence and all. Though he was sick in the head, I actually liked him for some reason, though I hide it most of the time, but nevertheless, I do miss him. No more, no less. SA MGA MALISYOSO ANG TAKBO NG UTAK, WELL...TAMA ANG INIISIP NIYO AT YUN NA YUN! :P

2. I miss Lisa. Who wouldn't? I mean, I just miss her and all that. I miss hanging out with her @Robinson's and eat and chat and work with her...that's it. 

3. I miss Aloha. I miss her breathy voice and all and her cute smile--which hides the real her underneath. That sassy girl with a bad-ass attitude, yeah, that's her alright. With that curly hair flowing gloriously on her back that matches her glamorous outfit, sigh, I suddenly miss her. 

4. I miss Rodal. I miss her witty attitude. Her child-like talks and her contagious laugh, she really stands out from the crowd. And oh, I miss how she makes us all go "ew" and all that when her "beh-beh" calls. She is so hilarious. I hope she's fine though, wherever she is. Last time I checked, she is in Cebu, working her petite ass off for whatever its worth. haha.

5. I miss Karlo-w. My love interest, the boy-next-cubicle with that sensational tone of voice when he speaks, he is like Dr. Love from some radio station somewhere. I miss his Smile, his never-ending childish teases and all...hmpf. I wish him well, too.

6. I miss Hannah. Though she is expecting me to come to Manila and work with her, I doubt if it will come true. It makes me wonder when is she coming back to Negros for all i care. 

7. I miss Carla Moi. I miss the emo in her. hehe. I just miss her. Though we exchange SMS's every now and then, but talking to her personally is a different story. 

8. I miss Maja, Steep, Mommy Yowh, and May--the Masscom Diva-Divahan. I just miss them all. They are the best companions that you can ever tag along in any given situation. 

9. In connection, I miss Ever Adlong, Ms. Marulay 2008. Te? Diin ka na bala subong? Nahidlaw na gid ko ya simu. 

Nevertheless, I just miss them all. I may have ditched a few names but nevertheless, it only means one thing...I don't miss you at all. haha. Why? Because we see each other often and we communicate more often that these people right here so, no need for you to frown or anything just because I didn't mention your names; and having these people's names posted here on my blog doesn't mean they are special above anything else. I just miss them, alright? hehe. :P

Realizations of the Day

1. Never Trust NORECO.


2. Power Surges bring out all the Happy Hormones in you--Nothing to do; Happiness! :)


3. Early Lunch is cute...NURSES everywhere--guys and gals. :P


4. Weird parking boys with Epilepsy. Wouy?! Skiri.


5. Redundant Topics, Redundant Contents. (diba? haha. :P)


6. Its Dress up day: I look like a Video City Clerk. :P 
--> Red Collared Shirt (with Chest pocket and "The Warehouse" logo on it that looks like the Video City logo from afar), Shorts and Slip-on Shoes. :P


7. Acoustic Remixes suck--big time. Pure Torture; Plain Evil. :(


8. Lift is the best Lemon Soda I ever tasted. bwahahahhahahahahaha. xD


9. KENO.


10. Charlotte, you rock. haha. :)

Things to Do When You Suddenly Feel Hungry

1. Drink lots of Water. Water makes you feel full. Therefore, if you are on a diet or if you just don't want to gain any more weight, drink lots and lots of liquid. 


Obvious Facts: Replenishes your body, makes you feel cool inside, you can have it for free. :)
NOTE: Lay-off the cold, bottled ones ok? Did you know that you can gain weight by drinking cold water? But drinking cold water every once in a while would be worth it if the weather is way too high up and is not actually cooperating...am I right or am I right? haha.


2. Eat Crackers. The cheapest thing that you can buy out there when you are hungry; and some crackers today are offered in more healthy options so you can choose--finally!


3. Save your breath. There's no other way than getting hunger away from you and that is not talking too much. Talking makes you tired and stresses your mouth so, IF YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING DECENT TO SAY, then shut up. :)

Thursday

Its a bit gloomy out...and I love it. :)

Hey!

Yeah, you! Yeah, you in the black shirt with your hair clamped down onto the back of your head with a headband. What is up with you lately? Haven't you gotten any sleep at all? Well, if that is the case, you have all night to do so...

You seem so bothered? What is bothering you by the way? You seem so disarrayed and that your eyes tell me that your brain is being filled up again with thoughts and thoughts and more thoughts. Can't you tell your brain to stop filling itself with lots of thoughts so that you wont end up like a sick bastard by the end of the day sitting in front of the PC asking himself "Am I dumb or what?"

If you want to be a sick bastard then go ahead, no one is stopping you right at this very moment anyway, even I cant stop you from becoming one of the sickest bastards that I have ever met in my entire existence. I mean, c'mon? You're not really a bastard; rather, you are a big tub of lard who just cant help himself and just stare away at the moon and the stars wishing that one might just come down and fall right under his nose. 

Piece of advice: GO GET SOME WATER AND DRINK THE ENTIRE GLASS FILLED WITH IT IN ONE GULP. In that way, you will be able to experience what really life is. Its hard to take everything all in. Sometimes, the best way to enjoy life is to take things down one by one. You know, learning things in a very odd way can somehow help you in one way or another. 

So? What are you waiting for? Are you just gonna sit around and wait for the sun to set and the moon to rise or you are going downstairs and smoke a stick or two? (or maybe gulp down an entire jar of water?) What do you say, huh? :)

I have Decided...

I didn't eat lunch. For some reasons, eating lunch was never a necessity at all--for me that is; and the heat outside is way too hot. And I thought the "ber" months would bring in colder winds and much breezier days but dang, Is this the coldest that Mother Earth have? Oh my Gosh, I think I am gonna throw up. 

Anyway, I am not here to blab about the hot weather out or Lunch. I am here to post something else. 

Ever get that feeling of angst and the whole intensity of it? Well, I am sad to say I am having that "tingly" feeling right now and I am not liking it one single bit. I mean, c'mon? The sun is way high up, My stomach is empty, and my head is filled with billions of thoughts...can't you just make any effort as to not bring any bad news further to our bunch?! 

Yes, you are the boss. But do you think you are actually giving us the impression that you are somehow worthy to be called one? These past few days, I came to a realization that somehow, for you to be able to value the things that you have is to lose them--and that is what we are going to show you. Although, I would have to admit that this is my first job ever. 

I have never regretted a single moment, until today, that I have worked in your humble company; yes, I was very proud then that I was able to land a job somewhere that would somehow make me feel that Independence would be such a pleasurable thing. But you know what? I don't--not anymore. I think, the only thing that would make me want to enjoy Independence better than I enjoy it here, is to stay away from here--far, far away!!

And oh, yeah, before I'll forget--I am going to do it soon. I mean really soon; and you should know that. I mean, you are the boss right? You should know. 

Wh@t to Eat for Lunch?

I barely have a hundred bucks in my wallet and I am sort of hungry right at this very moment. Break is in about an hour and a half and I am really looking forward to it. Not because I will be able to eat, but because I will have to decide what to eat with less than a hundred bucks in my pocket. So help me gosh. :(


Noodles anyone? :P 
(it seems that I only have very limited choices at this point of my life so let it be, I would have noodles then...but it costs P20? Can you believe it? sheesh!)

L-O-V-E

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

1 Corinthians 13:1-13

Now

IF there is one thing that I would want to do today, that is to tell it to you straight in the face that you are ONE HECK OF A LOUSY BOSS.

Good morning.

 Thought of the Day...

ano sa tagalog ang centipede? hmpf...

Halloween

Dang it!


I got so excited about Christmas, I forgot about Halloween. Haha. Whatever. :P


I realized though, just a couple of seconds ago, that I hated Halloween. I am not a hater, No. Its just that, It doesn't feel right when people scare you to death on that day. I mean, c'mon, its supposed to be remembering the dead...right? Then why the hell are pranks being pulled off on people like me?


Ok, I am letting you in on a secret. Its about the real me--the real, soft me. Yeah, I have to admit that I really look tough on the outside and would seem to be that person who doesn't fear anything in this world but honestly, I am afraid of ghosts or anything paranormal and beyond. I just hate it. It gives me the creeps. 


Call me a wimp or a scaredy-cat or whatever that you want to call me but from where  I live, ghosts stories and paranormal activities are in abundance. Not a single day that something strange and creepy and eerie and everything else nasty happens; and if you were to be in my situation, what would you do?


Well, of course, if you'll ask me, I would definitely give you a straight answer and that is run away and hide under your sheets. Not to mention tuck your elbows and knees in as far as you can go and never breathe--the bogeyman might just be sitting right next to you. 


Damn, I hate talking about spooky stuff. I am ending this post right here.

Usernames, Passwords, eMails

I am, therefore, not bragging about me having a good memory or something. Thought you should know, I can still remember this one memory that still haunts me in my sleep whenever I dream about happy thoughts and this particular memory happened sometime when I was way too naive to consider life as a threatening discovery.


Anyways, I am not here to blab about that, I am here because of one thing and one thing only. I hate usernames and passwords for crying out loud. (yeah, I can hear your screams of hate out there but please be patient enough to hear my side of things, will ya? I am still practicing my Zen thing-y). For the record, I have kept only one username and one password for my entire online life. But sad to say, these stupid viruses that are all over the web infiltrated me once so therefore, I had to change usernames and passwords to all my sites for all I care and honestly, it was the toughest thing I have ever to endure. 


Remembering one username and password is one thing, remembering all the sites that I have used them for is another. Wait, does that make me want to hate websites or my usernames and passwords? In one way or another, I am glad this time around that I am only keeping a couple of those websites that I have signed up before because remembering all those usernames, passwords and emails makes me go dizzy. 


Sheesh! and I have to blab about it here. 

Realizations of the Day

1. You may never get to sleep that much but somehow, life makes it a little more worth it, knowing that you see more than dream more.


2. When you listen, you go def. When you scream, they listen.


3. Hunger makes you think. Gluttony makes you sick.


4. The sun is always bright; but if you have optical problems, they are as twice as painful to enjoy seeing the light of day. Literally, you would wish that "you will never see the light of day..." but this right here, is figuratively speaking. I don't want to die of course, I am way too young.


5. Boys will be boys. Unless they wear a bra or something or stash their sister's hair accessories onto their balding heads.


6. When your head aches, don't push it. Unless if you want to end up in a hospital bed. If I were you, I'll just snooze it off.


7. Food is always yummy. But what is there to crave when all you see are plates and spoons and forks...where art thou my babies?


8. Oh, if a person hates you or doesn't even like your presence, you should know...right? Unless they hide it from you...hmpf!


9. Mobile phones are useless if they don't come with external memory slots.


10. Mobile phones are useless for people who don't even try and use them and just rather bring it along with them so that people would say that they have one and that they care--as if!


11. You may be hot, but one night is not that hot enough. 


12. Yeah, you are a dork--and you should probably be proud of it because all eyes are on you, your royal dork-ness!


13. If I am pathetic, what are you?


14. Slippers are made to be worn on our feet--not on our heads.


15. If you see something shiny and glittery from afar, boo, it ain't no pot of gold at the end of the rainbow; its just a quarter. Go pick it up and get yourself a candy or something. 


16. If your instincts tells you you haven't taken a bath yet, go take one--NOW!


17. If you are lost for words, then you seriously need to see a psychiatrist; or better yet, read a book and grab a couple of words or something. Learn you idiot!


18. People are always mean. Therefore, be one. Don't be a screw-up! its the 21st Century. No one buys martyrdom for crying out loud. 


19. They say, if you find LOVE it would definitely make you feel tingly all over; well, maybe that is because you really need to go. 


20. If you wait that long, say hello to the vultures; they would be more than glad to accompany you every flap of the way. :)

Do you believe in ghosts?

bwahahahahhaaahahahahahahahahahaha. xD this question is so nostalgic, im bursting into tears. i dont really know...do you? :P

Ask me anything

Are you more of a talker or more of a listener?

Talker--passive. Listener? not quite sure.

Ask me anything

What was the last book you read?

im still reading it and am having a hard time finishing it.
Eclipse, Stephenie Meyer

Ask me anything

My Message to Santa...

Dear Santa.

Hello! I am David, a boy who lives far, far away. You know, I have been a very good boy this year and I was hoping you would give (grant) me that one wish that I have been asking you for. I don't know if you heard me the last time I spoke to you in my dream but, I would just want you to know that I am in dire need of Love--not the love of family and friends, but love from someone whom I can call mine; someone who is special and dear, someone who I can call mine. 

I turned 22 this year, you know; and for the 22 years that I have existed, never in my entire life have I craved for something really, really sweet. Sweeter than Ice cream and Cake. :)

I want a boyfriend...and I want a cute one. Someone that I can cuddle to whenever I wanted, someone I can pinch and tickle and annoy and see his face turn red from laughing, someone who can complete my day whenever he smiles. I want that someone that would cook me sunny-side up eggs and hotdogs for breakfast, makes me coffee in the afternoon (and makes one for himself too so that he can join me and we can talk the whole time while sipping on the coffee he made).

And oh, I want him to make dinner too; or maybe skip that part and just let him bring me somewhere neat to eat--just so that we can spend some time for the both us while we are at it. I want him to love music too. So that we can listen to songs that we both love and enjoy an afternoon or something together with earphones plugged into our ears. 

I never wanted to go outdoors but if he loves it, so will I. I want him to be masculine enough in a way that he makes me stare at him with awe and be dazzled with his presence. I want him to protect me. Protect me in a way that I won't ever have to be worried about being alone in the dark at night, or just be alone in the world for the rest of my life. 

I want him to accept my past--or never mind it all. I want him to embrace me for the fact that I exist and that I am making him happy until who knows when. I want him to be loved by my family too, specially my sister, who has always been there for me whenever I am in deep S*it. I want him to love my sister too in a way that he loves her the way I do.

I want him to be in that shining armor. But armors are way too expensive so let him be dressed in casual clothes and make him look neat and handsome and nevertheless, yummy--for all I care. I just want him...that's all.

So, Santa, please? I have been a really, really good boy this year. Can you grant me my wish and make 2010 the best year for me? Thanks.

Sincerely yours, 

David <3        

What Have I been Up to Lately

For the past few days, I went offline. Mainly because I was dodging something that I knew was coming--probably a message from my boss, annoying Facebook notifications, Stupid eMails, or whatever--I wasn't as prepared as I used to be. 


What I did...


** Slept early--woke up early. I missed it very much you see, being tied up to the graveyard shift at work and all. It was one of the things that I have been craving to do lately and I finally did it. In one way or another, I enjoyed it somehow; though I end up doing nothing the whole day aside from eating and visiting the loo more often than I should, but nevertheless, the experience was fun. I had enough helpings of the morning lifestyle jolts and everything and I want to do it again some other time. 


** Spent time with my sister. We barely get to talk to each other more often than we used to so technically, silly talks with my sister was one of the things that made me laugh a little and enjoy it while I still can. Of course, along with it are chips, bread/sandwiches, coffee and pretty much, taking gluttony to the next level. haha. Not to mention never ending karaoke sessions over Aegis (a Filipino rock band) rock band songs--which I don't prefer listening to very much, thank you; but nevertheless, it was fun.


** Playing old school PS2 games. I know, it was pretty much lame, but at least I DID SOMETHING unusual. :P haha. I got hooked to need for speed underground, the prequel of underground 2. gameplay: boring. but it got me hooked though, just like all the other need for speed titles. I am one damn driver in those games. silly. :P


** I got to splurge on Ice cream. YEAY! :P yeah, I was able to splurge on ice cream, even though it made me spent on almost all of my money but...it was worth it. :)


** In one of my blank moments, I got a letter from google. Weird, if you ask me. It was about google 1500 adwords offer something. I didn't quite understand what it was for so I dumped the letter somewhere--as well as the voucher that came along with it. Automated mails, sheesh. 


** My crush swapped his phone with mine. ungh! FEELS LIKE HIGH SCHOOL. hahahahahhaahahha. xD nevertheless, the feeling is somewhat mutual. We now exchange SMS more often than before and I AM IN LOVE. I know, its lame and pathetic. But who cares? :P


** For the record, I didn't miss Facebook at all; not even twitter nor Blogger, Wordpress, Youtube and everything else. I KNOW RIGHT? It was amazing how I didn't miss my online life for quite some time and now I am back and umm...well...umm...I don't feel any different at all. Which makes me conclude that Life is pretty much how you want it to be and therefore, I am totally losing it. hahahahahhahaha. xD


Funny, everytime I post something on the web I end up losing the entire sense of it all. I dont know, Maybe its just how I am. I know where and how to start but I can't seem to get the hang of ending it properly. Nevertheless, I have shared what I have to share and that is  it. :)

The Boulevard

You dont know how much I have been through just to take these shots. I had to wait for several hours before the sun really came out and man, it was cold spending my night at the boulevard--no, I had no intention of selling my soul to the Americans nor was I liable to be sold to one--but that day was just...I dont know, lame? 


I took these pictures came the 23rd, sunrise and I have to admit it--I did exercise a bit. I went walking from the parking lot to Bethel Guest House and back. I had to walk my fat ass for a while and get to take these photos--and see odd-looking people too. nyahahaha. xD


Well anyways, as lame as it can be, I was able to spend some time alone and get to take these shots using my amateur skills and my camera phone...I just love taking photos of things, makes me feel alive in some way. :) hope you like it. :)

Taeyoung is Just behind those clouds (taeyoung means "SUN" in Korean)

Still dark out. :)

Would you believe the man in white is Petit Baldado?

The street. :)

sand and gravel? joke. :P

Sea Wall. :)

Some lady... :P

Dalampasigan? tama ba aketch? hehe. :P

Parking area (BG: Silliman University)

Silliman University from afar...

Taeyoung is finally out... :)

Taeyoung. :)

Banderitas. :)

hmpf...

The Bench. :)

Seven Sisters of St. Paul of Chartres. :)

No Parking! :P

The lamp post. :)

Happee Toothpaste sign. No littering. :)

Dancing B*tches. :)

clouds. <3

Same Clouds. <3 hahahahahaha. :P

Still...the same clouds. :P

Acacia man siguro ni. :)

Gor!

???

more gor walking. :)

more and more gor walking. :)

The pier, from afar. :)

Stage...and I dont even get it. 

Bangka ni manoy... :)

Manoy. :)

more clouds. :)

Taeyoung behind the lamp post. :)

Simple Ewans. :)

PS. dont be fooled by the rocks that they've got kasi hindi talaga bato 'yun. its something else. :P

** When the going gets tough, well, problema na nila yun. tumahimik ka nlng, ok?

** Kape--Oo, nakakapagpakalma xa...pero iba din ang kinalalabasan pag nasobrahan ka ng inom. ewan ko lang. 


** Sigarilyo. well, magsunog na tayo ng baga hangga't pwede pa.


** NAKAHUBAD NA LALAKE. juice ko, nawa'y sagutin nyo na po ang mga panalangin ko at bigyan mo ako ng isang totoong maligayang pasko and isa'ng napaka-manigong bago'ng taon--please?


** Kanta ng 2ne1. nakaka-adik, ewan ko lang. 


** '70s or Old school Song. nakakaloka din xa, swear.


** PATAY NA AIRCON. P****ta! nakakabagot at nakakasira ng bait. ewan ko lang noh.

Rain Check!

The last time i remembered it rained, 'twas a very windy night. Thunder and lightning filled the skies, booming like there was a war going on between the greek people, just like that of the epic battle of troy depicted in two of the most epic stories ever written--the Iliad and the odyssey. 

its raining...and i love it. <3

what makes me love the rain so much is because of a couple of things. one of which is the fact that i get to cuddle my pillows and blanket with no remorse at all. another thing is that the rainy weather makes me splurge on coffee to my heart's content--don't you just love the smell of warm, steamy-hot, and yummy coffee? (yes, i am a bit exaggerating it but who cares? everyone loves a cup of coffee or two)

another thing is that it gives me an excuse not to stay out of bed. whenever it rains, my body suddenly turns on its automatic internal heater and raises my temperature to an absurd 40. yeah, it sucks, i know...but there is pretty much nothing that i can do about it since by body suddenly enters its "lazy" mode so, there. i am stuck in bed until the rain stops and leaves the Earth damp with all its tears. 


speaking of tears, walking under the rain hides them from the entire world--my being sober and everything else mushy and suck-y. you know, its nice being able to shed all your tears away after keeping them inside your eye bags and all for quite some time. there are just instances that triggers you to jerk your tears out and just feel so emotionally drained every once in a while; i mean, we are humans right? we are supposed to bleed and cry and get hurt and everything else in between, its Mastercard.


2:18pm


I am still here in front of the computer, staring at it likes its a painting or something. chatted with a couple of friends somewhere out there; edited a picture of my college mentor in journalism, my birthday gift to him; downloaded a couple of songs and have been listening to them the moment they were saved onto the hard drive of my computer over and over again. 


right now, i am hungry. i forgot to eat lunch. haha. :P


i guess i have to go and get me some lunch then before i'll starve myself to death. 


**by the way, this post was purely out of non-sense...and the rain of course. :)

How to Deal...

If you were to do something that you despise doing and that others think that its the best for you, would you do it or would you simply ignore the fact that it is the reality of things and would somehow be--on the latter--something that could change your life?


well, if I was to do one thing in my life, that is to become who I am and not somebody else. honestly, It would totally be a depiction that you are somebody else's robot and not really living up to yourself. 


my friends always gets too feel and hear me "blab" all the time about being in a chrysalis for so long and that deep inside me, i want to burst that chrysalis open and bust the hell out of that stinking prison cell that i am in for who knows when; and i somehow appreciate those who lend me their ears and listen to what i have to say. to reciprocate the deed, i listen to whatever they have to tell me and then it makes me realize that somewhere out there, there is that someone that you can always turn to in times of being in deep-shit and agony.


to be fully honest, i am really tired of living my life in the shadows--hiding my true self to the ones that others think are the most important people in their lives which is, by the way, so not true--and somehow live a life filled with lies and deception. 


I don't really know what is going on or when this will ever actually end, but i can feel somehow that deep inside me, my heart tells me that its going to be really soon. 2010 has been a blast for me--being able to get a job, earn money without the help of others, buying things that i love and splurge on the sweet temptation of blissful fantasy and everything else in between. 


this year, i have learned to drink and drive (literally) and drink and drink and drink...I have become a drunkard for the sake of being sober enough not to express my deepest angst towards the people that forced me to become such an illusive person and nevertheless, hated the world because of its existence. 


but on the brighter side of things, there is that certain hope that still lingers at the end of the tunnel telling me to head that way and get to see life at somewhat a different angle, view or perspective or whatever you may want to call it.


so going back, i would have to say--get a life. you are the king or queen of your own world. you don't necessarily have to change for the sake of others. to quote, we don't always please everybody. so, if you were asked to do something that you despise of, stop and think for a second. if you were to do it, with utmost certainty, then ask yourself. 

is it going to change me? or is it going to drag me down and tear me apart? 

if you are able to answer that, then it wouldn't be so hard for you to decide whether to take the left side of the road or the right-side one. think about it. there is always room for thoughts and second chances and oh, happy thoughts too. :)

the baytch!

(taken this afternoon: "bangka ni manoy")

There is nothing more rewarding than being able to feel that certain happiness and joy that you have been longing for. Though I don't feel it that much--yet--but I am hoping it'll be soon. 

New Post--Again!

Weew! A new Blogger blog. Amazing. I just got tired of Wordpress and unfortunately, I cant access my old blogger account so here I am, stuck with making a new one. gawd. I'll be back later. I'll post something neat. :)