Just a Post to Update

I am not really sure as to what I would really write down on this blank page that I am staring at; its been quite a while that I haven't posted in this blog of mine--that when I come to a point and think about why I even put this one up in the first place, makes me forget of the past that I had way back when I was at home. 

Currently, I have been busy about a lot of stuff. As always, I keep thinking of the things that are far and beyond the world that I am currently in right now--a world filled with stress and everything else in between that brings it to life. But honestly, I am really not that busy, I just want it to make it sound so complicated that in reality, its not. Haha. I don't really know what to think of. I am technically out of bounds--I am clearly not myself anymore. I no longer have that sense of humor that I usually have, I am no longer the outgoing person, I am no longer that person who stays up late at night until the morning comes in front of the computer, thought I still face the computer until the morning but this time, trying to analyze how my customers mess their accounts up and how they spent their money bluntly that they come to a point that they mess everything up literally and they scream at us over the phone for the things that they themselves are the only person to blame. Isn't that stupid? But as my coach said, if not for their stupidity, then we wouldn't have this job that we all have right now. So, instead of sulking all day, cursing the heavens why callers are so stupid, I thank them instead because if not for their stupidity then I wouldn't be earning so much every 15 days. Haha. 

Damn! What else can I stay? For crying out loud, I technically miss the life I had back home--I miss everything back home. The people, the place, the food, the environment, everything. What makes it funny this time is that by Friday, I will be going back to the place that I deem where I truly belong--what makes it funny? Its not that I am going home, but its the fact that payday would come first before that day would come but I am more excited about going home and not about the money that I would be getting that I would eventually use to go back home and be with the people that are important to me. 

Ungh! I am going nowhere again in a post and I hate it. But somehow, I am relieved though that I was, again, able to share a little bit of the life that I am living right now and that is what's important. Nevertheless, I never don't really care about anything else--love, sex, money--they are not that important to me right now; What is important is for me now is to enjoy life that way I wanted it to be after getting what I wanted and that is the freedom that I wanted way back when my life was a mess. 

--> Until the next post...