I am just ME

It fascinates me that in reality, I am always lost for words; but when I am blogging, I find myself filled with too much words--to much ideas all cramped in my not-so-intriguingly-genius-brain--that I end up blabbing!

I can't help it. When I am all alone and my brain ticks twice as fast than it normally does, my fingers just can't stop tapping and I end up making a post that is a page worth of a read (for myself, hahahaha! xD).

Do you think I have with me a personality disorder that I have never discovered? Odd, but I think I do; or maybe its just because I think about so many things that I just don't know where to start thinking and when to start acting. 

Decisions, Decisions--we always have to make decisions whether we like it or not; and somehow, these decisions would make you sick that at some point, you just can't help but break down. 

I, for one, have experienced those moments countless times that if I were to be a computer, reformatting me would not be a good idea. If I was a computer, I am filled with viruses that causes my system to act in silly ways that no anti-virus software could prevent me from having and could fix me in one way or another. 

But nevertheless, I am somehow happy that I am inflicted with such viruses and that no cure can be found because these viruses somehow helped me to become ME and not be anybody.

The word of the week: Clueless! I am somehow falling in love with the word and that at some point, it can utterly describe me in ever way possible. I am totally clueless about the world and that I still have a lot to learn before I can actually call myself human--or so I think. Nonetheless, I am still happy that I am clueless and that I have viruses with me wherever I go. I may never show it blatantly, but I am happy inside. There is no point in exalting it or boasting about it out loud as other may not care. Its me who feels that way and its me who should benefit from my happiness--though I will be more than glad to share, but its my decision to share or not to share.

Now, I am blabbing. :P